Naomi Poulton

I have had a very up and down day today and I am coming towards the end of it and I am shattered, because of how varied my emotions have been today.

Emotions are very strange things sometimes and on a day like today I really cannot understand them at all! At some points today I have been fine, getting along just like normal doing my work or whatever. At other times I have felt soo down that I don’t want to talk to anyone, don’t want to eat or do much in particular and then half an hour later i’ll be fine again. I’m finding it all very confusing!!

Its strange cos most of the time at the moment I am fine, really happy! It is less than 3 months till I get married, plans are going fine and I am soo excited about the big day and life after it. I am just weeks away from finishing my PGCE and I am enjoying my last placement.

At other times I feel really rubbish, extremely tired, feel sick, headaches, stomach aches, trouble sleeping and relaxing and increasingly mixed emotions. I have been feeling really frustrated about everything which just makes it worse, its all so crazy sometimes and I don’t know what to do half the time! I think a lot of it is to do with still being pretty anaemic, and it is clear that the iron tablets are not working. I am going back to the doctors this week so maybe he will give me something else that will help which isn’t just another blood test!

All I want is to feel more normal with my emotions, to not feel like I am constantly on an emotional roller-coaster with my feelings always being so unpredictable. It takes the smallest of things to change how I am feeling and I know its not meant to be like that!

So yeah, here is my thought for today…what strange thngs emotions are!

Oh and I have also put some photo’s on my website now! I will be adding more in the next few days in between lesson planning!